I’m Still Here

The dustiness and the chalk
Belied the commonplace in the road I walked
Sweet wrappers shining like gems
And a sun seen through gaps in fingers showing
A pulsing of blood
I’m still alive
I’m still here

The journey home was a sleep walk
The fence a tower to climb
The stairs a mountain
The bed that came up to greet
My falling frame
Built a barrier
Stopping me flying apart in space

My thighs burnt on the inside
My skin stinging
From a thousand nettles
My centre raw
From a thousand tiny cuts
It’s those little deaths that stay
And never go away

Too little to be there
While now all-knowing
With a worldly-wise that shaped
And hollowed out
A loneliness of the guilty
And the fear of the hunted
A constant companion

Time and tide turned
And a casing grows
And a softening comes
And a trust is earnt
But a heart is broken
And a fear is planted
And it’s rarely far from view

This entry was posted in rape, Violence against women and girls and tagged , . Bookmark the permalink.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )


Connecting to %s